Today was my worse day at Gaia Yoga Gardens, and the worse day so far on my Fruitarian Bodybuilding Athlete Challenge. I have a few potential reasons in mind. One being that I ate too many coconuts and too many macadamia nuts which lowered my immune system. Another is that yesterday I worked for eight hours under the sun. The other reason is that last night I made a fire late at night and more than a handful of times I inhaled a bunch of smoke. The final potential reason is all the changes, stress and the environment at Gaia Yoga Gardens, which is not ideal for me.
I guess that the true reason for why I felt so sick today is a combination of all of these reasons mentioned above. It is interesting to note thought that the last couple of days I have been failing, miserably, to follow a true fruitarian diet. The fruit I have been getting at Gaia Yoga Gardens isn’t nearly as good as what I was getting at the Kanekiki Farm and thus I have been eating less.
The Fruitarian Bodybuilder is Out of its Element
Now, I don’t want to bash on Gaia Yoga Gardens because I do think this place is quite wonderful. In many ways I find it to be much better than the Kanekiki Farm, especially when it comes to freedom and transparency. That being said, the Kanekiki Farm was clearly much more conducive and supportive of a fruitarian diet.
I am not sure if what I got is a simple cold, a throat infection or what. That being said, I feel pretty shitty, my energy is way low, my throat hurts, I have been blowing my nose all day long and I am super tired. This is a bummer because I was really looking forward to today’s ecstatic dance and a fun weekend around Puna. Hopefully I will feel much better tomorrow and be able to hit restart on this vibe.
There is certainly no intention to hate on Gaia Yoga Gardens, the community here or anything else. Like I said, there are many wonderful things about this place. However, now that I look back, this is surely not the right place for me and I can see that I knew that before I moved in.
Perhaps I should have gone straight back to Denver when I was in such a rush the leave the Kanekiki Farm, but I don’t regret having stayed longer and the fact that I gave Gaia Yoga Gardens a fair chance. As a matter of fact, I have learned a ton since I have been here and it was certainly worth the energy and money that I spent to move in. Just by being here for a few days I am able to see with much more clarity what type of community I want to build/live in and what type of person I want to become.
This Fruitarian Bodybuilder is Leaving Hawaii
With all that in mind I spent the whole day looking at other options outside the state of Hawaii. Some of the places that are calling me the most right now are Chaing Mai (Thaliand), and a secret town in Ecuador which I will keep in the DL for now. =D
After looking at places to live and prices for flights, I decided to purchase a plane ticket to Denver for March 6th. I could have gotten something sooner but I still want to learn more about Gaia Yoga Gardens and I want some time in Hawaii to say goodbye to the island and friends. Part of me is nervous for staying much longer here with all this discomfort but another part knows there is still much more room for growth.
Some of the main reasons why I am leaving Hawaii includes the high price of fruit and its lack of availability, which is sadly surprising, my disappointments with the Kanekiki Farm and inability to find a more suitable community or affordable place for me to live in, and my desire to return to Colorado to see my parents and “regroup”.
Sad Day for this Fruitarian Bodybuilding Challenge
I can’t really count many stars for today. I didn’t do any exercise at all, I accepted some coconut water (which wasn’t even that great) and I didn’t took a picture (and I don’t even want to). That leaves me with two miserable stars on a very miserable day. Its life.
