Tricky day at the Kanekiki farm. I woke up 10 minutes before our morning meeting. Last night I only slept six hours and this morning I woke up without energy.
We worked moving wood for three hours until my legs said “no more”. I finished my work day in the kitchen helping to collect brown matter for the compost and starting a fire on the stove. Fridays are usually slow work days at the Kanekiki Farm.
I think today is going to be another failed day on this Fruitarian Bodybuilding Athlete Challenge. I already lost a star for sleeping less than 8 hours and I also lost a star because for lunch I had some leafy greens, onions and garlic on lettuce raps with avocado and green papaya (not fully fruitarian). I am a little annoyed that I ate so much fat and greens so early in the day. I get so easily distracted, it is quite embarrassing to be honest.
Failing on my Fruitarian Bodybuilding Athlete Challenge
It looks like I only have a couple of stars left today. Taking a picture would earn me one and exercising for two hours or more would earn me another. I hope I get to do both of those, it shouldn’t be so hard. Otherwise, I would start to think I am a pretty pathetic fruitarian bodybuilder.
Right now it is almost 2 p.m. In an hour Ray, Jake and I area leaving to go camping near the lava flow. I am not really excited to go, I am feeling super tired and quite lethargic. I don’t know if this is because I slept so little or because I ate 3 avocados for lunch.
I find it tricky to succeed on a fully fruitarian diet when there are so many temptations around the Kanekiki Farm. The temptations are not huge, but for some reason I easily give in to eating more greens than I intend and more fat than I truly want.
I wonder what all of this means… Am I truly not that interested on being a fruitarian bodybuilder? Am I not that committed to trying this fruitarian bodybuilding approach? Should I drop everything and move on to another phase of my life? Should I continue to pursue a dream that I am just not that into anymore?
All these questions have no answers. All I can do is be in the moment and see what happens with my life. I can continue to set goals and let my vision guide me, but I also need to honor my environment, honor my heart and have faith in destiny.
I am not afraid to drop it all and move on to the next thing. I also do not have a fear of success.
I am just being myself.
Update on Day Three of My Fruitarian Bodybuilding Athlete Challenge
I ended up going to the lave flow but I didn’t stay to camp. The lava was impressive but “because of safety reasons” we were not able to get close enough to get a great view. This is why after a couple of hours of sitting on rock I got bored and decided to return to the Kanekiki Farm.
I enjoyed the trip back, it was a combination of walking alone on the dark night and getting four different rides, two on the back of pickup trucks and two inside a van. Walking alone was one of my favorite parts of the day. It helped me remember how much I enjoy spending time alone and walking without purpose or a place to go (although this time I did have a purpose and a place to get to).
I am not sure if all the walking I did today added up to two hours, to be fair, I will say it did not. This leaves me with a total of two stars for today’s Fruitarian Bodybuilding Athlete Challenge. I better step it up!
READ ABOUT DAY #4 OF MY FRUITARIAN BODYBUILDING ATHLETE CHALLENGE
