Today was a ground breaking day for me, literally. I woke up around 6 a.m., headed to the Kanekiki community room and got a little bit of work on done on my computer before our morning meeting. The meeting was longer than usual. The owners talked about some changes going on at the Kanekiki Farm and they reminded us of the agreements we made when we decided to join this raw vegan community. The meeting didn’t settle so well with me and I felt like I didn’t win anything with it, it was quite draining to say the least.
I worked the rest of the day harvesting fruit and clearing fallen fruit trees around the Kanekiki Farm. I felt completely drained most of the time. When I say drained I mean physically, mentally, emotionally and even spiritually. I have been feeling like this for the past few weeks and it is certainly getting worse. One could argue it is lack of sleep, or over consumption of fat, but I think the core of it is that I feel unfulfilled.
Am I Leaving the Kanekiki Farm?
After work I ate some papayas and got ready for our Monday meeting, which is the weekly meeting where we all check in and talk about issues going on at the farm. I almost didn’t attend but I felt somewhat guilty and responsible so I went anyways. I did say during my check in that I was feeling angry and that it was likely that I would leave the meeting if I felt overwhelmed.
Sadly, this is exactly what happened half way through our meeting, when one of the new girls at the Kanekiki Farm suggested that “if women are not allowed to be topples at the farm, men shouldn’t be allowed to be topless either”. For the record, women ARE allowed to be topless at the farm, this girl simply didn’t know how to express her need for support being topless. The fact that the community could even entertain the idea of men not being topless at the farm was enough for me to walk away.
My First Visit to Gaia Yoga Gardens
Around 1 p.m. I left the Kanekiki Farm to visit a self-sustainable community called Gaia Yoga Gardens. This is one of the few places that I think would be suitable for me if/when I leave the Kanekiki Farm. Gaia Yoga Gardens is also an intentional community and the main diet there is also raw. The difference, however, is that most of the people at Gaia Yoga Gardens are not vegan. In fact, many of them eat raw meat and raw eggs. I know this might be a shock to many of my readers but this diet is quite common in many places around the world.
The question now is: Will I start eating raw animal products as well? Probably not. I have thought about it thought, after all, I still tend to believe, in my brightest days, that all I know is that I know nothing (despite how paradoxical that sounds).
I still believe that animals should have all the freedoms and rights humans deserve. In fact, I believe that plants should have these freedoms and rights as well. That being said, I am extremely open minded and I am willing to test my theories in the most challenging ways. Believe me when I say, that if I ever decided to eat raw animal products, it will be for a very good reason.
Today’s Fruitarian Bodybuilding Athlete Challenge
Today was a semi-failure. I ate fruit all day, except for a little of a left over salad that a friend gave me and I couldn’t resist. It is quite sad to be honest, because it really wasn’t that good, I just ate it to distract myself from all the emotional and mental turmoil I had going on. There goes a star for the day.
In terms of exercise, I honestly don’t think I made the cut. I did walk for to and from Gaia Yoga Gardens, but I also got a couple of hitches that saved me a lot of miles and took a lot of minutes from my exercise hours. I want to believe I still got 2 hours in, but to be fair, there is a good chance I fell short. There goes another star.
Luckily, I did write this blog and I just got a friend to take a quick picture of me. I also got 8+ hours of sleep last night so I get a fair total of three stars for today’s Fruitarian Bodybuilding Athlete Challenge.
READ ABOUT DAY #7 OF MY FRUITARIAN BODYBUILDING ATHLETE CHALLENGE
